Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, alchemy, eclipse, inner-marriage, love, prose, relationship, scorpio, taurus-scorpio-axis on October 31, 2022| Leave a Comment »
How do I bring myself Forth from this loneliness?
For the last of your Days
were surely the first of my Nights
yet still my Heart indwells possibility
that Providence shall grant us Union
with the Bestowing upon us
of a Reality fully formed
within the delicate sliver of Space
between rigid absolutes
that ‘ere now has confined us
to only mirrored Experience
of that which has been
the Other’s unmet World.
~ S. Brodbeck ©10.31.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, empowerment, jupiter-retrograde, loss-gain, love, manifestation, moon, new-moon-solar-eclipse-scorpio, pluto, prose, relationship, sacrifice, scorpio, self-healing, south-node, south-node-eclipse, venus-scorpio, venus-sun on October 21, 2022| 2 Comments »
I smothered it;
I smothered it ‘ere full breath could be undertaken,
Re-animating a once lovely yet still-past, dead Thing.
Though saddened I was by the doing of it;
I have no regret of the act,
and decision for it, in itself.
The returning of the Thing to Rest,
‘ere accountability be demanded of me for its very Existence,
was the proper course to be undertaken .
One day future when glimpsing past,
it shall be known that the ending of the Thing
was the beginning of the Liberation
for Us each.
I wish it to be understood;
that my relinquishment unto Death,
of the very Thing that I desired so,
is offering of testament to a growth
bearing fully this humble recognition
that should the beloved Thing Become
once more Arisen
finding itself Reborn unto a new Day
it’s Promise to resurrected Life was gifted by a Power
far exceeding of mine alone.
Sharon Brodbeck 10.21.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, Aries-Libra, empowerment, love, pluto, prose, saturn, self-healing, venus-pluto, Venus-Saturn on October 15, 2022| Leave a Comment »
He denies me Beauty
Despising me for my Love of It
yet but a twisted whimper of wrath
is his claim upon a fame.
Should thou peer keenly
upon the wrinkle set over brow
what once was mistook
for mark of great thought
shall prove to be naught
but crevasse of envy
pressed ever more deeply
‘neath beguiled weight
of self-doubts.
Why then should I
invite upon mine own mind
the burdens of thee
whom would seek to shackle me
within fortress walls
bereft of Life?
For is it not true
that your denial of a Thing
can no more cease the existence
of that Thing
than it can prevent
my Love upon It?
I will not fret you further
in these matters and Ways
yet will choose to full Heartedly Embrace
all of my Greatest and Truest Loves
wasting not yet another moment
indeed many sunrises of moments
in a denial of That which is found
pleasurable unto Mine Very Soul
so that you might find a small
indeed dismally small comfort
through your banal denials
of Beauty and Love
so that one’s self
finds preservation within
a misery of righteous Wrongs.
© Sharon Brodbeck 10.15.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, aries, empowerment, full-moon, full-moon-aries-2022, libra, love, mars, new-moon, prose, relationship, uranus, venus on October 7, 2022| Leave a Comment »
Word Up on me Not with lingual love
Forget me Please if this is all that you offer;
to sleazy Seize that which you desire
yet noncommittal Be Thee still to the fires;
that Truest Love brings to aLight
attempt Ye’ Not to break it down for me
how you suffered by others and trusted not
for I am not they whom minced words and actions
truths loosed from my heart shared freely from honest tongue
an unmeasurable many times
to be met only by your backward facing ears
unable to meet me present;
for Past wrongs bethought of from others
held you closely and stroked One’s fragile ego
lest accountability take hold and require greater effort
to seize upon a new day
and enter Genuine relation with another
such as I
where one’s each and every action
is an Expression of Love
and not merely a pumped up word
dialogued strategically with guile
merely meant to excuse one of misaligned deeds;
and non-deeds; indeed!
Woe unto He that plays his hand as such
for lonely be the days and nights
that hence forth come from such self serving pantomimes
So again I say with kindness;
though you might doubt that to be true
Word Up on Me Not! and properly
Forget Me True!
for undoubtedly the best course Be
to walk separately our Rested Lives through.
Sharon Brodbeck 09.01.21
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 12th-moon, 2021, birth-death, oob-moon, pluto, polarity, prose, self-healing on October 3, 2022| Leave a Comment »
My body is a temple
my body is a tomb
my body has given birth
and been birthed
by another body’s womb
what womb, I muse, shall birth me
back into the ethers
from hence I once came
born in to this world of matter
to play at an oft times cruel game.
Sharon Brodbeck 07.30.21
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, love, love-letters-from-neptune-series, mercury, mercury-neptune, mercury-venus-neptune, neptune, relationship, self-healing, venus on September 30, 2022| Leave a Comment »
I should have told you that I had already decided whom you were going to be, long before you even arrived.
I should have told you that I was never going to love you because I was too busy hating myself.
I should have told you that I noted every little, and big, thing about you that didn’t exactly fit the “You” of my preconceptions and that I truly believed I could help you fix all of them.
I should have told you that I never really knew you at all when I said, “I do”.
I should have told you that if you were not willing to kill everything that you uniquely were, to be the Prince that I imagined you to be, that you should not have said, “I do”, in return.
I should have told you that I had no idea of whom I was so there was never any real possibility of you knowing me either.
I should have told you that every time I expected you to respond to me in the exact same manner that the Prince in my head did, and you failed to meet that expectation, I hated you a bit more for letting me down again.
I should have told you that though I hated you I hated myself exponentially more for failing to be the perfection that I apparently needed to be for my Prince to arise from within you.
I should have told you all of this and so much more; yet I could not for I could not tell what I did not then know myself.
It would be my experiencing of you, and other non-princes, that would lead me to these truths that once evaded me.
All of these fore mentioned confessions I place before you and to these confessions I do now add the following;
I now tell you that you, exactly as you truly were not how I imaged you to be, were perfect for the then version of me, though I could not then see it.
I now tell you that I miss your smile and that I have never met another whom could tell a joke even half as well as you.
I now tell you that I tell our story of gaming and boozing and dancing and laughter, when we were young and broke and all alone, and it is told with a happy heart and a tear.
I now tell you that your dance moves, all two of them, were bad; really truly Awful.
(more…)Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, Meditational Thoughts, tagged 12th-house, 2022, 8th-house, empowerment, grief, love, moon, pisces, pluto, saturn, self-healing on September 29, 2022| Leave a Comment »
Let your grief be as a warm blanket passed down through many generations of those that also have weathered this storm and added to this rich weave the thread of their own survival;
As the icy winter gale wails and thrashes and moans about you, a mirror to all that you have locked within, allow the weight of this blanket to anchor you to the world you fear is being torn away from beneath you;
Find the assurance within the thick wrapping of so many common threads, that even though you now feel threatened within every fiber of your being by the storm that rages on both around you and within you, you will indeed survive this tempest to meet with a new dawn;
Though you may emerge from this period bearing the bruises of the gale that engulfed you, homage to the truth of your ordeal, you will add your own thread of wisdom, born of your companionship with grief, to the ageless blanket that shall be lovingly availed to the next whom finds themselves in need of it.
© Sharon Brodbeck 9.29.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, alchemy, empowerment, energy, freedom, pluto, self-healing on September 28, 2022| Leave a Comment »
I knocked on the doorway marked Freedom; yet no one answered.
I knocked many times more and awaited the door being swung open wide by the will of another; yet still it remained shut up.
Fuming and flummoxed I collapsed upon the doorstep.
I sat wearily for hours; indeed it felt to be many lifetimes so exhausted was I by the futility of my efforts to obtain entry to the Hearth of Freedom through the doings of another.
With emotions now spent, and will brought low, I arose once again; resolved to take leave and intent upon abandoning my afore sought objective.
While standing with gaze upon bulwark entryway and devoid of previous desire, an acceptance of my defeat, a whispered thought stilled my leave and I found my arm extending tentatively toward the knob of the door.
With expectation previously placed upon the deeds of others released, my fingers encircled the knob;
And So It Was, that with the Turning of Thought and Hand, I did now with great ease achieve the entry to the Freedom I long sought.
I share the undoing of this long suffered self-riddle now, as I rest within these Halls of Grace, and I offer this Truth hence gleaned;
Always it was I, and I alone, that were responsible to My Freedom; for none could give what they had not taken but merely as burden had received when once I had erroneously cast forth my destiny upon their efforts and deeds.
Sharon Brodbeck 09.28.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, tagged 2022, asteroid-skuld, autumnal-equinox-2022, Earth-Wisdom, empowerment, equinox, full-moon-pisces-2022, garden, loss-gain, love, mercury-retrograde-libra, new-moon-libra-2022, relationship, self-healing, skuld on September 22, 2022| Leave a Comment »
As I sipped my coffee this rainy morning, watching the happenings at the feeders through the kitchen window, I spied the young male cardinal tucked solitary into the lower branches of an Elderberry Queen.
I followed the cardinal’s downward tilted gaze and laughed; a male squirrel that I have christened “Gets Along with Birds” was frantically rummaging through the new morning offering of seeds upon a split log.
Undoubtedly the intention of our squirrel friend was to bury most of his seed finds yet he appeared consumed with an equal desire to fill his belly with these delicious morsels; his frantic pace possibly a result of irritation stemming from his own indecisiveness.
Resident finches and sparrows chirp as they congregate happily around the iron ground feeder; a clear signal that their greet and eat this morning is an enjoyable one. A few errant doves waddle about the brassica bed, pecking here and there as they roam, occasionally extending a wing as the steadier rain dwindles to a lighter drizzle.
Nowhere that my eyes did drift had I spotted the female cardinal so seemingly her mid-morning interlude kept her elsewhere; I glanced back to where her companion had been a few moments before finding he had now placed himself on the curled iron top of the shepherds hook while still awaiting his turn to feed at the log.
I found myself drifting into a brief reflection as to how I arrived at this moment of such contentment and peace afforded to me through my relationship with these petite wild-ones.
It has only been a few short years since my three beloved fur children had returned to Spirit yet I see now clearly that it was in their departure that the space was created and seeded for these precious moments that I am now experiencing to exist.
Though the transition of my little soul mates and occurrence of subsequent events was not the only time I had experienced this truth it would seem that the gravity of my grief during this most recent “loss” delivered this wisdom to me in a manner that I now behold as Truth.
It is with that last thought that I hear quite simply;
“Every Parting offers us a Gift; sometimes it just takes us a while to unwrap it.”
And so it IS.
S.B. 9.22.2022
Posted in Astrology in Daily Life, Healing,Energy Work,Conscious Development, Meditational Thoughts, tagged 2022, empowerment, energy-working, neptune-in-scorpio, pisces-full-moon-2022, pisces-transcendence, pluto, self-healing, shadow-work on September 18, 2022| Leave a Comment »
The Webs once Spun;
I have seen Undone
yet damage not their Spinners
To glorious Queens of this Autumn Age
a Litany offered before grand display
of these finest silver woven wonders
With respect made plain;
a last delicate tendril lifted from furled brow
considerate of entanglement lessons gleaned
I am free; I Am Free!
no longer these mortal webs shall encumber me
and though I loathe not
those that sought to bind
be mindful we no more shall meet
lest it be sincerely understood
the Merry Part offering
of our Sacred greet.
S.B. 9.18.2022
Your Support is Appreciated!
Into the Mystic 