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Please do not Judge Me for Living My Truth

It’s mine and I own it whatever it’s Proof

Please do not Fear for Me for my Soul is Safe

Should you see Darkness within Me

Fear not, for it is in the right Place

My Lessons are Many, my fears may be great

Yet it is Mine to Reveal, and Restore without Hate

If ever you view me standing at Hell’s Darkest Gate

Please let it be known, the Light in my Heart, Shall be my guide Home.

When I struggle with Darkness, Fear and ill Faith

Your Love, plain and simple, shall help me find Grace

So Pray, judge not my fears, with your Anger nor Pain

Instead speed me Light, with Joy, in great Haste!

I ask simply this please…

Do not Judge me for Living my Truth

I AM what I AM and with All of my Might

I AM Purely and Simply

A Being of Light.

~Janya

***A very dear friend of mine penned the above some time ago and I felt it was perfectly befitting my little tale today. Thank you Janya, for allowing me to share your words of wisdom!


The past few days I have been in the space of a deep clearing of wounds that I had no idea I was carrying until recently.

That is not unusual at all though, especially after you have been on the healing path for a good amount of time, for we clear the ‘knowns’ first, the wounds that are on the surface that can still be seen in some manner, and then we go deeper than.

Deeper Than…I first began to hear those words 2 years ago. Deeper Than.

And I replied, “Yeah, sure, why not? I’m game!”.

That must have been my overly enthusiastic Uranus at work there. ((sardonic smile))

Seriously though, I have no regrets, not in the long run.

I do have my hard days though, just like everyone else, and on those days I can tend to be quite sarcastic, it is my way of keeping myself moving forward and my head above water during the really tough stuff.

As I’ve said a million and one times, and others have too..a sense of humor is mandatory when on the path of Healing.

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Before I go into sharing my experiences and my forthcoming understandings of said experiences (that precipitated the title of this post), I’ll share the lowdown on my current astrological transits:

Transit Saturn (responsibility/the past) is on my 3rd/4th house cusp. (local community, brothers&sisters/inner self and more of the past). 🙂

Tr. Saturn is squaring Tr. Pluto whom is now within 3 degree’s of my descendant, so likely now affecting not only my 6th house (service to others, personal health) yet also my 7th house (committed relationships).

Squares are frictional and we all currently have the transit of Saturn sq. Pluto somewhere in our charts, I just happen to have mine as I detailed above.

I also have the coming Full-Moon Lunar Eclipse on New Years Eve conjunct my Ascendant (self)/ Descendant (other), squaring my natal Jupiter/Mercury (higher/expanded understanding) conjunction in Libra (relationships/balance/justice) and this all is forming a loose Grand Cross with my Chiron (healing/wounds) at the top of my chart(sharing my understanding of this wound to heal thyself) .

On the day that this area of self-clearing began for me, transiting Moon triggered the Saturn/Pluto square by forming an inconjunct and trine respectively, when the Moon aspected conjunct my natal Saturn in the 11th house (friendships/groups/hopes).

I’m not sure who I wrote that for, my readers or myself..likely more for myself. (I hope you benefit, but I am determined to do what I have to do here to heal thyself.) ((admitting with no shame))

Though it just made my tummy flip upside down again for the upteenth time this week.

So I am steeping in relationships right now, and issues of responsibility to others, and the need to regenerate in some manner, how I have perceived and/or done, all of this before.

Following is my tale, of uncovering wounds of perceived failure, and the messages I have received, concerning our responsibility to others. I confess the tale is somewhat long, for I could find no way to shorten it and still get my point across..so you may wish to take out the dog and get another cup of joe before you proceed..you brave, brave Soul. 🙂

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Thank You, Elsa P! :)

Astrologer and Author, Elsa Panizzon, creator of ElsaElsa.com and  AstroDispatch, extended her kind selflessness to me this past Autumn when she added me onto her list of astrologers and writers contributing to AstroDispatch.

Thanks to Elsa, I have received exposure to my site, that I likely would not have aquired for quite a while longer without her assistance.

If you are not familiar with ElsaElsa, I recommend stopping in for a visit.

Elsa offers a wealth of information daily and her archives are absolutely overflowing!

Also in the offering, is an astrological board that allows for the community at ElsaElsa to share their daily life experiences and explore their world in context to astrology.

On a personal note to Elsa:

I am immensely appreciative of not only the opportunity you have gifted to me through AstroDispatch, but also for the open manner in which you share daily your knowledge acquired through many years in service to others.

I have learned, and am continuing to learn, much from your sharing.

Thank you Elsa for your daily efforts in all that you do at ElsaElsa and AstroDispatch, you are one amazing Lady!

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Author and Astrologer, Donna Cunningham, has gifted me with the honor of guest blogger, on her site:  Sky Writer.

I am elated to be acknowledged in this manner by Donna whom has served so many with a genuine devotion to assisting the well-being of others.

I have admired Donna Cunningham’s work for quite some time, and she has been an inspiration for me many times when my journey was difficult.

I will honestly admit that when she extended the invite for guest blogger, I was like a little kid that just found out they are going to Disneyland, dancing gleefully around my kitchen and high-fiving my dog. 🙂

Thank you, Donna, I am deeply honored..you most definitely made my day!

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Today marks Winter Solstice in the Northern Hemisphere and in most societies this week is embraced as a holy week and is celebrated in a myriad of forms, dependent upon one’s personal beliefs, or those of which belong to the society into which one was born.

I personally, have never felt a personal attachment to any holiday of note, of any culture.

It is not that I am adverse to holidays celebrations, and in fact when I was raising my daughters, I quite joyfully participated in any celebration that was of importance to them.

You see, until recent years, I have had a walk that necessitated developing a great deal of optimism to roll with the challenges.

I suppose I learned a very long time ago, somewhere within childhood, to accept change as a constant and to celebrate each little event that felt good.

I have learned to embrace challenges out of the realization, that at least for some (myself included), challenges are a way of life and no matter how much effort you put into avoiding them or attempting to wish them away, you find time and time again, the only way up is through.

Yet too, I have learned that when one stops denying the existence of their personal challenges, and faces them head on with determination and courage, those same challenges eventually become one’s greatest achievements.

When you enter this world with an abundance of challenges, I feel many of us learn quite quickly that to sustain ourselves, we must celebrate daily, anything and everything that is Good and nurturing unto our Souls.

When faced with challenges, many are sent into reeling into ‘survival mode’, out of a fear of change.

Yet change is inevitable, and is ever occuring, regardless if one is able to recognise it at it’s most microcosmic levels.

The nature of change always brings challenges and challenges always catalyze change.

When you truly come to understand the dynamics of these cycles, and recognize that to evolve, we must embrace the cycle’s of change and challenge fearlessly, knowing, that this is the way we grow and become more, you suddenly find that you are living a life in constant celebration and awe, of this entire process experienced within our human journey’s.

Suddenly you do not wish to wait, for affirmed ‘special dates’, to celebrate and be joyful, loving and thankful.

Each and every moment, even the challenging one’s, are filled with a delicious prized center.

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We are now, as a global society, in the midst of a cycle of accelerated change and challenge.

There are innumerable filters through which to perceive that which is now upon us, and everywhere you turn now there are many that are trying to explain this period and what it is all about, through their personal filters.

I feel for the most this is a good thing for we all resonate in different ways.

For each that is seeking understanding through their personal filter, there is someone that is offering knowledge, through the same filter.

I personally, feel I know what I need to know for myself, and on occasion for others if I am to be of service to them in some form.

I feel no need to really know, the “ONE and ONLY TRUTH”.

In all honesty I feel that is a fool’s game to seek to know this “ONE TRUTH” in exclusion of all else you could be experiencing and benefiting of now, as there are many, many truths upon this plane, and much that is labeled as truth is merely a personal truth subjective to the one experiencing it.

Sure, I have my personal Truths, and I am in constant awareness that others have theirs also.

I feel the best we can likely do, is to live our days the best we can by standing within our truths, and by being tolerant of the truth of others, by acknowledging that not a one of us, consciously is in awareness of  the Whole of It.

If and when, I should be enlightened to the One Truth, well, I am sure I will be beyond blessed and thankful, yet as of now, that has not occurred for me.

So I take each step, each moment, each day of these changing and challenging times..and I walk it through, with the most grace that I am capable of.

I keep my eyes on what is straight ahead of me and apply myself to what I can do NOW, and do not allow myself to be concerned with what the next moment, may or may not bring, and I trust with all of myself, that All is Well, when I stay on this course of action.

And I celebrate, each and every day..I celebrate as I dance, as I sing, as I share laughter with another.

I celebrate by listening, truly listening, when another has something their heart and soul wishes to share.

I celebrate the smiles gifted to me by ‘strangers’ at the grocery and the company of the birds that visit me as I take in a few moments of the winter air on my deck.

These things I celebrate, and all that is good, and allow none of it to slip by without being savored and noted.

These things, nourish and sustain the Soul.

These things, we bank, and draw upon to keep us whole, as we navigate the challenges that catalyze change.

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My catalyst for sharing this today came of my need the past few days, to acknowledge this holiday season in some manner on my site, and to extend my wishes of a joyful holiday to my readers.

Yet I just could not find a manner of doing so, that I felt really embodied what I wanted to offer as greetings and blessings, to the many different personal preferences and paths  represented by those that partake in my offerings here.

So this is what came forth above, and I simply wish to conclude with this:

My heart and best wishes are with all on your celebratory days.

I hope that you find peace and joy, in your every moment, even those of challenge.

And may you find the courage and strength to walk your path with the utmost grace possible, for yourself and all others, through this Blessed Season of Change.

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Mars has reached his retrograde station today, at 19°42 Leo, and will be retrograde for the next 10 weeks, which I have previously written about here: Mars Retrograde In Leo: December 20th – March 10th

Here in the US Mid-Atlantic, we awoke to a picture outdoors that I thought was just perfect for Mars turning retrograde.

Yesterday brought a nor’easter up the Atlantic Seaboard and blizzard conditions were prevalent across many states.

Baby it is cold outside..and the Fire’s are burning bright within households up and down the East Coast.

Mars retrograde is all about the Fire turning within, from without.

So as I peeked outdoors this morning right before daybreak, the view to me was like Mars giving a heads-up, that indeed he was now departing the outer and taking residence, within.

Thought I’d share a few pics I snapped off of my view here along the Pennsylvania/Maryland border.

Have no idea what our official snowfall was recorded at though it appears to be over 20 inches.

Be safe All, and if you reside in the ‘drop-zone’, hope you find enjoyment in all that frozen white stuff!

Blessings 🙂

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Thank you, Auntie Moon!

CJ Wright, astrologer, numerologist and author of Auntie Moon, recently honored me as a guest blogger on her site.

I was so thrilled!

This was a first for me and I am appreciative of CJ’s kindness.

From one Moon Child to Another, my sincere thanks, you made my day Auntie Moon! 🙂

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Here we are counting down the last days until Christmas, and all the young people in my life are a mixed bag of anticipation, hope and trepidation (((laughs))).

Yes, trepidation, over the possibilities of just what might be inside those innocuous appearing wrapped packages, under their grandma’s tree.

It is a well-known fact that grandmothers can, and will, gift you with what they think you need.

After all, they have eons more of experience in life matters than your parents do, and to them, your parents are still kids anyway so therefore they simply cannot be relied on to make sure you have everything you really, truly need.

Now make no mistake, if grandma feels you need Preparation-H (let’s not even get into how or why she would think that..UGH), but the point is, if she THINKS you need Preparation-H, you can bet your arse, that is exactly what you will be unwrapping in front of the whole family at Christmas.

And be prepared, to suck up your mortification and smile big for that picture you know she is going to insist on taking to mark that special occasion.

Nothing like being memorialized in the family albums for all-time with your big ‘ole grin and a tube of Prep-H. (((giggles)))

Who hasn’t been there done that one, though??!!

It is just a part of being a dutiful and appreciative grandchild, and if you were fortunate enough to have grandparents, and they treated you well as grandparents should..then hey, what’s a little personal mortification once or twice a year to show how much you love them, right?

So, onto the story that prompted this blog today.

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Today, is my eldest daughter’s birthday.

Today, she is 22.

Yet yesterday she was a defiant teen, and the day before that an awkward pre-teen, and the day before that, it was her first day of kindergarten.

The day previous to that day, she was the toddler with her arms wrapped around my neck, her tiny little face peeking through my hair, as she flirted with whomever was offering her, a much beloved cookie.

Not so many days ago, she was placed upon my breast, this newborn delight of mine, and she smiled up at me with a little pucker of a smile, and I felt a Love and Peace, that is the gift of Motherhood, of which we lack words of enough depth and richness, to even remotely describe this Heavenly Space.

Mother’s reading this, understand this and are in no need of words to describe what this is when holding company with one another, for we feel it and just understand it, this sacred space of a deep, eternal love that we enter into, within these rites of Motherhood.

Yes, I am deeply nostalgic today, and am savoring each and every drop, every single moment of memory, that returns to me this day.

You see, I feel we have these moments, and the whole of these moments, defines the Truth of our existence.

These moments, that define us, are the moments that reside in our Hearts, and are ever present, and ever alive.

I do not believe in living in the past, and yet, I do believe we occasionally need to take a moment, to scan around to be certain, that we have brought forward, all of the really precious wonders, that have brought us to Be, whom we are now.

The moments I carry in my Heart, those shared with both of my daughter’s, and the gift’s they have graced me with, in those shared experiences, are directly responsible for whom I have come to Be, today.

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There are many things I intended to write about today.

Yet as soon as I awoke, the myriad of moments that I shared with my daughter, from the first that she entered this world, indeed from the moment I conceived her, continue to drift through my mind and senses.

This nostalgia is likely intensified today as I am currently in a period with heavy transits to my natal Moon (mother,women), with transiting Uranus and Saturn in square, and Pluto in opposition.

So, I thought maybe I’d try something a little different today, and I am going to review my personal chart for what I had transpiring the year I birthed this lovely child of mine.

If you are so inclined, feel free to share your personal experiences/astrology data in the comment section, I would enjoy sharing this “Sea of Nostalgia” with other parents that wish to savor their moments of wonder the year their children arrived.

So, here goes, a look at how this child entered my universe, via astrological influences. 🙂

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I recently had the pleasure of being the recipient of an ‘ask and you shall receive’ gift.

As I have mentioned in other posts I am currently in a cycle of activated Kundalini.

So to make short a long story, :) , I put it out through the ethers that I wished for someone, in a body ((silently thanking my disincarnate assistance for understanding)), to come forth that would be able to assist me during this transition in some way, someone that had something, I needed, to ease the discomfort that can come during a kundalini cycle.

The day following my etheric request for assistance, I found myself creating a Facebook account, which surprised me, for I had no interest in doing so, previous to that morning.

Within hours of my sign-on at Facebook, my request through the ethers was answered.

Steve Booke, a Musician and conduit for Healing, currently residing in NYC, friended me, and voila!, he offered exactly what I needed.

Steve’s musical compositions have brought me tremendous relief these past weeks, and have assisted the smooth flow of fire energy that, as of today, I am still experiencing.

In gratitude and thanks, for Steve’s generous assistance, I wished to share with my readers a bit on the dynamics of this talented Musician/Healer via his astrology signature, and to share his personal websites, for any that may wish to learn more of what Steve has to offer.

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As an Aries rising, Steve receives benefit of his natural chart placements through the houses and signs, and his chart ruler is Mars (which is also co-ruler of Scorpio and the 8th house).

With his Moon and Neptune exactly conjunct, in his Scorpio 8th house, Steve easily plumbs the depths of Scorpio’s transformational intensity with a passion that brings forth an exotic flavor within many of his compositions. In his own words, Steve has coined the term, “Exotic Sexatonic” in description of the rich, sultry tones his music embodies.

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Transiting Pluto is creeping his way to my Descendant and is currently conjunct my Juno.

My life is quite odd right now, no other way to put it for I don’t even completely understand it, after all, it is the first time in this life, at least, that I have been here.

Pluto transit Juno/Descendant is feeling like one, huge contradiction.

So thought I’d place here the separate interpretations for this transit, then bundle it all up, and see what I can see, in it.

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