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Word Up on me Not with lingual love

Forget me Please if this is all that you offer;

to sleazy Seize that which you desire

yet noncommittal Be Thee still to the fires;

that Truest Love brings to aLight

attempt Ye’ Not to break it down for me

how you suffered by others and trusted not

for I am not they whom minced words and actions

truths loosed from my heart shared freely from honest tongue

an unmeasurable many times

to be met only by your backward facing ears

unable to meet me present;

for Past wrongs bethought of from others

held you closely and stroked One’s fragile ego

lest accountability take hold and require greater effort

to seize upon a new day

and enter Genuine relation with another

such as I

where one’s each and every action

is an Expression of Love

and not merely a pumped up word

dialogued strategically with guile

merely meant to excuse one of misaligned deeds;

and non-deeds; indeed!

Woe unto He that plays his hand as such

for lonely be the days and nights

that hence forth come from such self serving pantomimes

So again I say with kindness;

though you might doubt that to be true

Word Up on Me Not! and properly

Forget Me True!

for undoubtedly the best course Be

to walk separately our Rested Lives through.

Sharon Brodbeck 09.01.21

Into The Mystic

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I should have told you that I had already decided whom you were going to be, long before you even arrived.

I should have told you that I was never going to love you because I was too busy hating myself.

I should have told you that I noted every little, and big, thing about you that didn’t exactly fit the “You” of my preconceptions and that I truly believed I could help you fix all of them.

I should have told you that I never really knew you at all when I said, “I do”.

I should have told you that if you were not willing to kill everything that you uniquely were, to be the Prince that I imagined you to be, that you should not have said, “I do”, in return.

I should have told you that I had no idea of whom I was so there was never any real possibility of you knowing me either.

I should have told you that every time I expected you to respond to me in the exact same manner that the Prince in my head did, and you failed to meet that expectation, I hated you a bit more for letting me down again.

I should have told you that though I hated you I hated myself exponentially more for failing to be the perfection that I apparently needed to be for my Prince to arise from within you.

I should have told you all of this and so much more; yet I could not for I could not tell what I did not then know myself.

It would be my experiencing of you, and other non-princes, that would lead me to these truths that once evaded me.

All of these fore mentioned confessions I place before you and to these confessions I do now add the following;

I now tell you that you, exactly as you truly were not how I imaged you to be, were perfect for the then version of me, though I could not then see it.

I now tell you that I miss your smile and that I have never met another whom could tell a joke even half as well as you.

I now tell you that I tell our story of gaming and boozing and dancing and laughter, when we were young and broke and all alone, and it is told with a happy heart and a tear.

I now tell you that your dance moves, all two of them, were bad; really truly Awful.

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As I sipped my coffee this rainy morning, watching the happenings at the feeders through the kitchen window, I spied the young male cardinal tucked solitary into the lower branches of an Elderberry Queen.

I followed the cardinal’s downward tilted gaze and laughed; a male squirrel that I have christened “Gets Along with Birds” was frantically rummaging through the new morning offering of seeds upon a split log.

Undoubtedly the intention of our squirrel friend was to bury most of his seed finds yet he appeared consumed with an equal desire to fill his belly with these delicious morsels; his frantic pace possibly a result of irritation stemming from his own indecisiveness.

Resident finches and sparrows chirp as they congregate happily around the iron ground feeder; a clear signal that their greet and eat this morning is an enjoyable one. A few errant doves waddle about the brassica bed, pecking here and there as they roam, occasionally extending a wing as the steadier rain dwindles to a lighter drizzle.

Nowhere that my eyes did drift had I spotted the female cardinal so seemingly her mid-morning interlude kept her elsewhere; I glanced back to where her companion had been a few moments before finding he had now placed himself on the curled iron top of the shepherds hook while still awaiting his turn to feed at the log.

I found myself drifting into a brief reflection as to how I arrived at this moment of such contentment and peace afforded to me through my relationship with these petite wild-ones.

It has only been a few short years since my three beloved fur children had returned to Spirit yet I see now clearly that it was in their departure that the space was created and seeded for these precious moments that I am now experiencing to exist.

Though the transition of my little soul mates and occurrence of subsequent events was not the only time I had experienced this truth it would seem that the gravity of my grief during this most recent “loss” delivered this wisdom to me in a manner that I now behold as Truth.

It is with that last thought that I hear quite simply;

“Every Parting offers us a Gift; sometimes it just takes us a while to unwrap it.”

And so it IS.

S.B. 9.22.2022

Into The Mystic

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if only for the briefest

of moments

‘tween dropped notes

of  casual exchange

arises a verse

brought to your lips

its tone

come forth unbidden

no longer veiled within

tangles of rhyme

freed then I would be

to recite mine own

verse of love

liberating my fore silent lips

could heavens glimpse

then await our sight

if only you should

respond yea to the query

resting still ever patient

within my Heart.

~S. Brodbeck 2022

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The Full Moon in Aries on October 22nd @ 9:36 pm EDT, October 23rd @ 1:36 am UT at 29°33 Aries/Libra is the second of two Full Moons to occur consecutively within Aries and therefore is a Blue Moon provided one allows for (and I do!) an alternative qualification of a Blue Moon as being two like lunations occurring within the same zodiac sign consecutively in addition to the widely accepted definition of two like lunations occurring within a single calendar month.

This Full Moon @ 30° Aries begins a series of 5 consecutive Full Moons that occur on the last degree of their respective signs. Seen as a degree of transition, the 29th degree represents the end of the matter in relation to the concerns of said sign. When we arrive at this point it is a time of culminating the wisdom and beneficial works from said sign while eliminating anything that is non-beneficial and cannot be carried forward into the next sign for further development. There are often last minute efforts to “complete” something and occasional leaps of faith when one feels a situation is just under the closing bell. (more…)

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The New Moon @ 14°24′ Libra occurs on October 7th, 2010 @ 2:45 pm EDT; 6:45  pm UT.

Libra, as the 7th sign of the natural Zodiac, is the 1st sign that concerns itself with “other”. It is within Libra that we take our first steps in developing harmonic relationships and is the space in which we we seek compatibility through compromise while adjusting our boundaries accordingly to better suit our quest for right relationships.

By the time we have entered into Libra we have journeyed through the first 6 signs, Aries through Virgo, and have sought a greater knowledge of self while developing our individual attributes. The last 6 signs, Libra through Pisces, are the space in which we bring forth our best attributes of self while seeking to enrich our self-understandings through experiences that are external to us. In Libra we develop our comprehension of the “We” principle and eventually expand our comprehension to include the One Self by the time we complete our journey of the Zodiac at the end of Pisces.

With the annual Libra New Moon our focused intentions are upon the development of harmonic relationships and with Saturn in residence in the Sign of Partnerships this year we are urged to focus not only upon harmony yet also upon sustainability. Saturn, exalted within Libra, is challenging us to define our perceptions of right relationship and to align our actions to whatever ideal we find we resonate with. Saturn wants us to ‘walk our talk’ and to do so we must become clear on exactly what it is that our talk is espousing in very real terms and what very real measures are required of us to walk that talk.

Saturn is often referred to as the taskmaster. Our task while Saturn journeys though Libra is to bring our relationships into a proper structure through achieving a balance of two individual energies/entities that allows for the two previously individual energies to function harmonically as a 3rd energy/entity. This balancing and blending of 2 individual energies does not require either party to be sacrificing of their true nature but does require a willingness to allow one’s self and the other(s) to expand into this 3rd energy of union at your/their own pace and in whatever way is healthy and comfortable for you/them. (more…)

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Saturn returns to Libra on July 21st, 2010 and shall remain in Libra until October of 2012.

We had a sneak peek of what Saturn transiting Libra has in store for us when Saturn briefly visited this sign late October of 2009 until early April of this year. Libra is Saturn’s sign of exaltation and seeks to bring relationships into proper structure through the balancing of two forces/energies that allows for a harmonic existence and functioning of the two previously individual energies.

Libra is the 7th sign of the natural Zodiac and therefore is the 1st sign of relationship. The first 6 signs, Aries through Virgo, are the space in which we come to know and develop the Self. The last 6 signs, Libra through Pisces, are the space in which we come to know that which is ‘external’ to one’s Self and develop comprehension of the “We” principle and eventually expand into the One Self.

Saturn has occupied the first 6 signs of the natural zodiac since 1994 so this shift into the 7th sign of Libra is quite significant as we steer our focus from Self to Other. A wonderful treat for those of us that have worked and reworked ourselves these past many years and are craving new lessons and directions that are less self-involved.

Our first step into harmonic relationship occurs within Libra and is where we seek compatibility through compromise while adjusting our boundaries to better suit our quest for right relationship. For some this shall mean an establishing of better defined boundaries while others will look to soften overly rigid ‘rules of engagement’. 🙂 As we have had a few months previous to now of experiencing Saturn in Libra you likely have some idea as to which application applies for you though it is quite possible to be working both ends by shoring up some boundaries while relaxing others of any that are no longer serving you in a beneficial manner.

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Saturn goes direct at 27°50′ Virgo on May 30th, 2010 and shall reenter Libra on July 22nd, 2010 thus bringing to a close Saturn/Virgo lessons and training.

Saturn will not return to Virgo again until 2036.

Of note is Saturn’s degree of direct station @ 27°5 Virgo for this is now a sensitized degree and as the inner planets move over this degree (especially the Sun and Mars) new developments in our Virgo related area’s will be triggered. For those that have applied themselves to their Virgo lessons (health, routines, communications etc) this will bring rewards for the efforts we have applied.

Dates relevant to the crossing by the inner planets of this degree are: 7-26-10  Mars > 8-5-10 Venus > 9-21-10 Sun > 10-2-10 Mercury

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“convention is not for me

I have tried

for all of my effort

I fail

and am left puzzled

as to why others

continue to push

the same buttons

over and over

expecting a different result

insanity

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Two days past my 18 year old daughter was pulled over by a policeman and issued a warning citation.

Her infraction?

Driving with one head light. {{smiles}}

This incident was downright poetic.

Here’s why. 😉 (more…)

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